Life With Tenyomaa

Happy New Year Readers!! When you are always a loud cheerful person (ahem!), you are used to talking so much. But the last month of my 2017 ended up muting me. The first thing that hit me was Premenstrual syndrome ( #PMS ). I got to my lowest emotional state and even up to a breaking point. I look like a extrovert person but there are lot of things I keep to myself. All of those thoughts and emotions that I buried in myself were now trying to erupt to the worst form it can actually be. I tried looking for help. I looked up for counselling and counselor but nothing great came up. With this, I was also filled up with work and expectations. I realize I am a type of person who like to perfect the work that I take. Sometime it hits me as a drawback. But still I continue doing it. I like positive feedback where a person can feed me in with thing I need to improve rather than a person who would comment on the mistakes. So anyways, starting the month with that sort of emotional state, I

Last time I was into sports was back till I was in High School. During college I didn't participate in jumping and running sports...guess I got old and lost my stamina. (Like I had most of it :D) To be honest, though I was in sports and running I would always end up last in sprints and marathons. One time, our school would take us running early in the morning. That day I was so late that my Principal had to come looking for us back from the running route. Haha and my excuse was I lost my way to school! Funny memories. So anyways linking back to my previous blog. We had a football game planned with my colleagues before the festival season. Fast Forward to the day: I was really excited to play the game. Mr. K came to pick me up early morning bu the game wasn't till 2 in the afternoon. With no chances of me coming back home to change, I went out from my home in my sporty look ie. Shorts and tees. With my injured toe which I didn't care much about I went to Mr. K's br

"A goal without a plan is just a wish"- Truly said by an anonymous. By this, if you've read my earlier post you might get what I mean. Somebody (Me) had a big plan like no one else, to go on a vaca to the 'it lake' during the festive season. It was the 'it lake' cause apparently it was on everyone's vaca list to travel...which probably might be the reason that statistics say that this year the tourist or number of travelers exceeded to the place than expected resulting in people to set their own tent in the open spaces to stay the night. Fortunately, I would not be one of the people setting out tents because I didn't own a tent. Unfortunately, we didn't go to the place because we didn't plan it prior. Come to think of it...it is also a good fortune. Mr. K had decided to stay in Ktm for quite some time so he didn't go back to his gau  (city in reality). He had someone pass away in his family, which sort of religiously or cu

The last time he came was only for few days...I don't remember exactly if it was with his mother for a wedding reception or for some other sorts alone. However I do remember it was only for few days, almost a week. Almost! This fall he was here for a long time. Didn't know how long was 'long time'. He needed to escape the screeching hot lands of Terai and needed cool (dusty) air of Kathmandu Valley. He had asked me to look for hotels, lodges or resorts, if I had to suggest, to get some chill air. I was very happy with the news of him coming to Ktm. After his arrival, I still hadn't fixed any escape from the valley. And where to we go in the end? Same old warm wooden cottage in the midst of Nagarkot hill. Our very old gateway. The place is nice and cozy, with lots of fun memories with family and friends...I would one day make the same one room wooden cottage with attached bathroom for myself in future. But I'd definitely add a TV in the room, unlike the place

I do not remember when I developed this fascination. But long as I remember I have always liked the fact and ability to groom a new life inside of one's body. I would have said a women's body, but only a day ago I watched a video of a trans man giving birth to a baby so anything is possible. To me the main fascination is the life itself whether it be to humans or animals. Oh by the way I think my Doma is preggy so anyone want to adopt her babies contact me :) Sometimes in my impractical mind I want to experience this wonderful gift,  I say it to many of my friends so they know of my obsession. The other day I heard one of the person I know is preggy May be it was inappropriate, but I asked to hold her tummy may be I was crossing my limits but there was no harm intended. I guess every new mom is protective of her baby and I, in my silly mind was acting as a threat...asking someone to let you feel her tummy haha But I wish the best for all the conquerors o

It is always during late hours she loses her sleep and starts thinking and wandering of all the possibilities. She knows what she wants to do but there is always a hesitance. Her Limitation- a line she could cross if she wanted to but doesn't choose to. A hard decision. Nevertheless, she explores in her mind. Loves solving problems...as problems gives her excitement. A reason to work to solve it. It is interesting. Because she knows there is always a solution. With time and patience it can be solved. But then sometimes, it is blank. Empty mind and a devil's workshop. Different thought good and bad. There used to be times when there was shining bright light,,,but it is now covered under shades.  Faith. Has it lost somewhere inside her or has she stopped believing? A question hard to answer. But isn't faith kindness? Is she kind enough? Has darkness overruled her heart? Question too many Question to whose answers needs to be sought. An adventure which leads to a wor