Life With Tenyomaa

I had never thought I would feel this way. This is the feeling I don't wanna feel the one I hate the most. I wondered when I see some people, Some people that are close to me. If they ever felt this way. I thought, if I were them I would feel this way What feeling am I talking about? The feeling when your heart feels heavy. The feeling when you can't say anything to anyone. The feeling when you get into a cocoon. Especially with me, a feeling where I shut down myself. Even for the very close ones. They call it a silent treatment. But for me this is a system close down. I take my time with this. I don't care how long. This feeling is the feeling of doing nothing.  Feeling of having no purpose. Feeling of Burden. Breaks my heart, but it's the feeling I go through. Very rarely But very often.

What are emotions?? I am not going to give any psychological definition of emotion or anything, Emotions are just feelings, There are seven universal emotions that everyone feels. They are anger, contempt, fear, disgust, happiness, sadness and surprise. We must all be familiar with these emotions. Nothing new here. But what I wanted to talk about here was, if it's just me or there are many others like me! An Emotional Wreck! So now what is emotional wreck? My definition of emotional wreck mostly includes tearing up! Whether in happiness or sadness I tear up just like that. I am not like this with everyone. It is usually for or with the people I love, care and have respect for. Why emotional wreck because there was one time in my high school life me and one of my best friends thought we were busted bad - We thought. It was all in our mind that we thought we were bust bad for doing things we were not supposed to do and all my other friends were against us. We thought they were i...

Hey Ya'll, Has it happened to you that whenever you finish up your meal and 15 mins later you feel like your tummy is gonna grumble again?? Happens to me most of the time...but if I eat again I can't!!  Just like with food, whenever I go to out or far from city places, it makes me ask for more. When you have a day out with my girls I get chance to take pictures and pose a little. >_o So the pictures below is with them. Two days after this day I got invited by the boys or should I say I invited myself to go with them to see the water fall. It had been raining for days before the day I went swimming with the girls so I thought there would be nice waterfall between the rocks and the green but it was a fail. Although everything else was beautiful there was only tiny force of water coming from between the rocks. It's with the guys that I don't take out my phone to take picture. They pull your leg (tease you)...so when ever I am with them I have no pictures. May ...

We walk down the road very casually, not very often but on the days when we feel like going outing or may be a day out with friends. Those are the days when we dress up in so called "western clothes". For some it may be shorts and for some it may be a dress. There will be tank tops, skirts and these days there are crop shirt, grunge pant the classic, sleeveless and tube tops. We see it everywhere.  Girls wearing them and rocking them on the streets, malls and parties. But for some reason people on the streets aren't able to welcome it in all. That stare we get on the streets when we are walking with friends or may be alone is very awkward. We wear these outfits comfortably before we get out of the house but the stare we get once we are out makes it all awkward. That guy coming towards me has is eyes on my not so much of boobsies. That uncle on the bike with his wife behind him stared at my legs. Now I walk pass a tea shop and the group of worthless people who spend ...

Usually when I am asked about my traits I am blank. I don't know what I am good at and then I remember I have the gift of art! My way of expressing things in my own way! I doodle on a paper randomly and then later it turns out to be something I never planned to make! I am not saying i am a very good artist because usually I end up making a girl's face specially her eyes. I always have an eye on my paper maybe because I like make-up specially on the eyes or may be the eyes speak the unspoken word. Funny my words are all philosophical like the one I just wrote "....speak the unspoken word" haha...  I am an extrovert person now specially when it comes to positive feelings but when I do get negative feeling I hide them inside. I know its not a good thing but I have learnt to accept the situation. And probably because I have learned that expectation is the root to all disappointment. And I believe that there's no use to show your anger and waste your energy.Whatever ...

As a child I remember me being a very quite child before others.It was very hard for me to make friend because I was already of a shy personality and on that my father used to be very strict about me making friends with any of the neighborhood children. And I guess the only friends I have got now is from my school, college and work. But 5 yrs back when Hi5 was gaining popularity and I was new in using it, I met this guy. I don't remember if we ever talked on yahoo but our story started online, at least for me as he says he had seen me earlier in my bully mode or should I say angrily trying to scare the hell outta some kid for hitting my sister. So yeah back then I didn't have a personal computer and I had to go to cyber to check mails and reply to them. And that was then when he added me on hi5 and we started chatting. He told me that he lived 2 blocks away from my house. We went to the same same cyber but never talked to each other. One time we were in cyber at the same tim...

I could have been in a different world! Probably somewhere not known to our world. Hidden behind the highest peaks and protected by its strength from the cruel and selfishness. A land where people are kind to every human beings and animals, where others came before self and every festivals would be celebrated in the most cultural and joyous way possible. Rich in food, culture, religion and language. Very rare animals and birds now would then, habitat in the area, where kindness was their religion. Unknown to the world and for them their small area where they stand was their world. But their happiness was soon attacked by the neighboring land and their heartless soldier. The land where people never meant harm to anyone was now under such circumstances where they were bound to hurt each other.They rebelled in the beginning and of course they would have because it was beyond humanity but the consequences they had to bear after that was beyond imagination. Never seen my world ...