Life With Tenyomaa

It is always during late hours she loses her sleep and starts thinking and wandering of all the possibilities. She knows what she wants to do but there is always a hesitance. Her Limitation- a line she could cross if she wanted to but doesn't choose to. A hard decision. Nevertheless, she explores in her mind. Loves solving problems...as problems gives her excitement. A reason to work to solve it. It is interesting. Because she knows there is always a solution. With time and patience it can be solved. But then sometimes, it is blank. Empty mind and a devil's workshop. Different thought good and bad. There used to be times when there was shining bright light,,,but it is now covered under shades.  Faith. Has it lost somewhere inside her or has she stopped believing? A question hard to answer. But isn't faith kindness? Is she kind enough? Has darkness overruled her heart? Question too many Question to whose answers needs to be sought. An adventure which leads to a wor...

So she has been feeling the bumps;  the bumps in her life. The highs and the lows, The steep and the slopes. I wonder that what's going on in her mind she pushed away; away some lads and ladies I am not trying to rhyme because I am not a poet But I am trying to figure the storm in her mind the weight in her heart I know its hard harder than walking on hands For those hand needs to be hold Those eyes need to shed The storms needs to strike the lightening Because she is a mess right now There is damage and there is no denying there is no tape made to fix this there is no glue that could stick it. She looks happy yet she is crying She looks strong but she's all broken She needs space- a space to fall  Fall so hard, wishes to loose her breath the last air exhaled while she is in her bed I guess the story is sad but not so bad Because she tried and tried A strong warrior inside. Silence...... Silence..... and End! ...

I enjoy my own time and my own company.  Not meaning to say that I don't like to be 'social' but if prefer my own space.  That might sound like I have few friends which in fact I really do have very small circle of friends. But I like the way it is. I like having fun with them and if you could ask them whose's the wackiest and craziest of them...they might point at me! :P Sometimes it brings me to a thought that I might not be as normal as such. I do these stupidest things that most people won't. I speak up to strangers and ask them random questions. Sometimes even personal. One time I remember when we were in 5th grade, we had one strict English teacher who had one day thought to have like a leisure period. So he was a bachelor and we were just children and since I was that one girl who was good in his subject my friend had asked me to ask him when he's gonna get married? So I asked him that and he replied to that question saying 5 years later. To that I ...

In life I don't think anything is better than a good end. Everybody wants a good end like even in movies Happily ever after is what most people want to see! ( coz I do!) 2016 has been a good year. I have had chance to go to many places with good company. Although the people I went with are not much in touch now, it was a great experience and I don't regret it. It taught me travelling doesn't cost much if you are with good company. I've had 2 jobs this year..one I already had since last few years and one that I recently quit because I couldn't fit in the working environment of that place. It had a lil negative vibe for me and too much restriction that I couldn't handle. I am just glad I am stepping into 2017 free of negativity and open arms for the experience it has to offer me. For me, most of the time I keep my friends and family above everything. I like to cook good food and sometimes when I have time and ahem the money I like to host friends over my p...

Hi there everyone!! I had something else coming up on my blog but I just decided to this one first. So my last blog was the first blog to ever get a comment on, and I am thankful to the those who commented. One of my closest friend "The Boy Next Door" message me privately about how he can relate to the blog and encouraged me to write more. Well thank you for those remarks though I don't consider myself as a writer. I think I am not very good with words. Today I just wanted to write about an imaginary place. I've been watching one K drama lately "W" have you heard of it?? Well, there the man hero is a comic hero and his partner is a real live person. They have the access into the comic world and the real live world! That made me think of my on place where I can escape. Living in a country like Nepal, it is kinda hard to move out from your parents house specially when you are a girl and in my case at the moment jobless. Haha 😂 I've been called laz...

I had never thought I would feel this way. This is the feeling I don't wanna feel the one I hate the most. I wondered when I see some people, Some people that are close to me. If they ever felt this way. I thought, if I were them I would feel this way What feeling am I talking about? The feeling when your heart feels heavy. The feeling when you can't say anything to anyone. The feeling when you get into a cocoon. Especially with me, a feeling where I shut down myself. Even for the very close ones. They call it a silent treatment. But for me this is a system close down. I take my time with this. I don't care how long. This feeling is the feeling of doing nothing.  Feeling of having no purpose. Feeling of Burden. Breaks my heart, but it's the feeling I go through. Very rarely But very often.

What are emotions?? I am not going to give any psychological definition of emotion or anything, Emotions are just feelings, There are seven universal emotions that everyone feels. They are anger, contempt, fear, disgust, happiness, sadness and surprise. We must all be familiar with these emotions. Nothing new here. But what I wanted to talk about here was, if it's just me or there are many others like me! An Emotional Wreck! So now what is emotional wreck? My definition of emotional wreck mostly includes tearing up! Whether in happiness or sadness I tear up just like that. I am not like this with everyone. It is usually for or with the people I love, care and have respect for. Why emotional wreck because there was one time in my high school life me and one of my best friends thought we were busted bad - We thought. It was all in our mind that we thought we were bust bad for doing things we were not supposed to do and all my other friends were against us. We thought they were i...